I recently signed on to part of a group of bloggers that I admire http://fitnessblogworld.com/.

It was recommended that I join by a person who is a wonderful writer,funny as hell and supportive http://www.bikiniorbust.com .  I haven’t been online or blogged much in the last few months.  It’s been a crazy summer, a summer in which I intended to get myself completely organized, finish with the renovations happening in my house, be mother and wife of the year and of course lose more weight and get fitter.

I have to admit that out of all of my expectations for the summer, my hopes were highest for the weight loss part and therefore my devastation most apparent when I hadn’t succeeded in my goals.  I’m not sure they were realistic to start with.  I knew I would be continuing with a renovation we have happening, I still had my two wee ones at home, I would travel and be without my wonderful trainer and chiropractor.   I was going to spend time with my mother in law(can you say stressful relationship), attend a reunion and friends wedding and spend a lot of family time. I was convinced I would succeed (and be perfect), but I must say not -mentally prepared to deal with the emotional stuff that would come up.

I allowed myself to fall into old patterns of having a few great days and then allow life to get in the way of my success, no one to blame but myself.  I lost focus, felt lost, and allowed all my old insecurities to creep in.  Somedays were great and i was really proud of myself, but then I would fall of course.  I know for me this is not good- I struggle to lose even when I follow a program to the letter.  So I think I had a bit of a  ” F  it ” attitude.

So our bloggers topic for this week was where do you see yourself in the future, 6 months or longterm, what are your goals, how will you get there, how do you get back on track? You get the idea.  I was stumped, I couldn’t write about this, I felt like I had no direction, no goals, I realized that I had actually quit and not even realized it, I had stopped working towards my goals because I really didn’t know what they were anymore.

So time to refocus, get my ass in gear, and figure out what and why I want exactly!! I’m not normally a point form person, as you can tell , but maybe that’s what I need??!!  To successfully complete goals I still need to figure out the why and how!!

~  Down 5″ of waist and 3″ of thighs by Dec 1st

~  Down 2 dress sizes by Dec 1st

~  Write a blog post once per week on my progress, as well as read a minimal of 3 posts by other inspirational bloggers

~  Figure out a way to be OK with what I’m doing professionally right now-choosing to stay home until after christmas.

~  Workout a minimal of 6 days per week.

~  Use the resources I have, be OK with asking for help when I lose focus.

~ Long term I want to walk into a kickboxing gym with my trainer a really focus with confidence and fitness on kickboxing.

~ Continue to fight the battle inside my head

~ post progress photos!!

Feel free to throw me some advise, other goal ideas, any ideas or inspirational stories would be appreciated!!!

Health and happiness to you!